Moments

My son received his 8th grade graduation ring and letterman jacket yesterday.  I was a bit emotional to say the least.  I had so many mixed emotions that I couldn't really define them to my self.  I wasn't sad, I was happy, I wasn't excited, I was nervous, I wasn't sick, but got a little nauseous....well in the end I wanted to cry, but I didn't!!  I think I had already embarrased him too much with my photo requests....

Last night he tells me he decided to run for class president!  Ofcourse, excited I scrambled to my art studio to gather materials to begin his campaign slogans and posters.  My daughter, a little growing artist herself, jumped at the chance to create and volunteer her time to help me in our "art-venture".  My dear hubby began asking questions about his campaign together they called my brother in-law and it became a family affair.  Well he instructed us on what his platform would be, what he thought his message should be and we all put our heads together and began working. 

Exhausted we went to bed.  I woke up in a panic at 5am realizing we still needed to finish the posters and I was out of some materials.  I rushed to the 24 hour drug store and got more poster boards.  I woke hime up and we wrapped up the signs.  Still excited from the very creative and adorable outcomes--- he tells me, "mom, I think this is overboard, don't you think it's too much?"  The feelings I wasn't sure I was feeling yesterday came flooding back like the flood we had labor day weekend! 

Yes, I figured out I was sad, a little melancholy, I felt sorry for myself!  My baby is growing up and no longer need me as much as I need him!  Geez, that's what happened yesterday when they announced he was receiving a longevity pin.  He has been at his school for 12 years (he started two years before pre-k in their children's early learning center)!!  High school choices need to be made in two months, but he just got here I thought!  Why does it have to go so fast?  All the years came rushing back!  I remembered when he did the 1st grade play and he was a monkey from the zoo all the way to last year when he played "Big Jule" from the musical "Guys and Dolls". 

So today, I'll focus on remembering good things and not so much on being this pathetic little girl that's trying to get out, act like a brat and scream and pout because my son is growing up!  No I'll be a grown up about this.  Yeah, right.....

Sylvia

My dive into blogging...

As I go through my lists of to do's, wishes, projects, and yes even some completed ones, I realize that lists upon lists upon lists just keep piling up.  My "to do's" keep getting longer and nothing but time stops me from accomplishing this.  Ooh, time management would be so great at this moment!

So what did I do?  Added  "begin a blog"  on my list!  Go figure, I thought,  this will surely sit around for a while....but here I am, blogging!  I should be catching up on some much needed sleep, emptying and reloading the dishwasher, adding another load of laundry to the machine and yes most importantly, working on some very important files that need to be completed for work! 

Hey,  I say,  this is therapy!!!!  Did I really convince myself this was therapy?  or am I procrastinating on the inevitable pile of work that is waiting for me?    This is my quiet time!!(I scream quietly to myself)...when I ever get any. 

So my list grows, but happily I found that with a little focus, a little meditation, a little guilty pleasure of leaving some dirty dishes around, I write.  I sit quietly in front of this blank page and just let my mind wander into blogging.... Good luck to me.  I'm a newbie, but even if I'm sharing with an infinite world that won't ever look at my page, I feel good.  Yes, I can dream can't I?

Sylvia