Ladies n Gents start your engines....

How many times have you heard this?  Yes, I am saying this almost daily.  What was I thinking, between running a business, being a mom and keeping up with the Kardashians...kidding, the social media sites, Twitter, Pinterest, Instagram, Facebook, Polyvore and now Vine...well who has time to blog????  Why do I keep up with so many social media sites?  One answer- kids!  If you have children, you inevitably will have to be a part of that world, which consists of all of the above and then some!

I have compiled piles and piles of posts I wanted to eventually put on my blog, photos of how-to's, crafts, food, holidays and for what?  Now I have to declutter my computer files of all of my "dreaming" and future postings....

What gets in the way? Let's see, work, to-do lists, life and yes society...some people have a sentiment that if you blog, you must be an unemployed person living in your parents basement.  Yes, I have heard this so many times over.  Instead of hearing the sound of my voice defending what is a form of self-expression and community sharing, I retreat.  Where is that strong voice that constantly tells me, yes you can do everything, I am woman hear me roar?  It's really simple...that voice is tired!  I am exhausted!  I have come full circle and fell on my bahooki!

I have been on a journey of research, yes constant research!  Research about health mainly.  That's what happens when you have the entire world at your feet and then suddenly it swallows you up and hasn't gotten a chance to spit you out!  The world is not done with chewing me up yet...or so it seems.  For now, I have that goal, yes I will be contributing more to this blog.  I've put my art to the side for now, I don't have the passion or inspiration, it's temporarily suppressed....I am hopeful!  I will be posting about health and a journey of discovery and knowledge I've acquired over the past year.  I hope sharing can help other people like me, who are just confused on how and why things change in your health almost overnight.

So for now my rant is done...but don't count me out.  I will be more active in the pursuit of health and wellness and eventually come another full circle and regain everything I initially wanted my blog to be about! Art-ventures!

Yours in wellness,
Sylvia

Summer Blogging

Summer started with a bang and here I am, yes, didn't I say I would start a blog...well I'm back and I am determined to stay consistent.  I've just been afraid of all that is out there in this new world.  I have so many wonderful ideas and am just terrified to share them, but on the flip I appreciate all the bloggers outhere who have put themselves in the world's eye! Kuddos to you all.  So without further or do, I will begin organizing some posts.  I hope it goes well and if not, just another lesson in life to learn from!  Happy Summer everyone!

Photo courtesy of Google

Moments

My son received his 8th grade graduation ring and letterman jacket yesterday.  I was a bit emotional to say the least.  I had so many mixed emotions that I couldn't really define them to my self.  I wasn't sad, I was happy, I wasn't excited, I was nervous, I wasn't sick, but got a little nauseous....well in the end I wanted to cry, but I didn't!!  I think I had already embarrased him too much with my photo requests....

Last night he tells me he decided to run for class president!  Ofcourse, excited I scrambled to my art studio to gather materials to begin his campaign slogans and posters.  My daughter, a little growing artist herself, jumped at the chance to create and volunteer her time to help me in our "art-venture".  My dear hubby began asking questions about his campaign together they called my brother in-law and it became a family affair.  Well he instructed us on what his platform would be, what he thought his message should be and we all put our heads together and began working. 

Exhausted we went to bed.  I woke up in a panic at 5am realizing we still needed to finish the posters and I was out of some materials.  I rushed to the 24 hour drug store and got more poster boards.  I woke hime up and we wrapped up the signs.  Still excited from the very creative and adorable outcomes--- he tells me, "mom, I think this is overboard, don't you think it's too much?"  The feelings I wasn't sure I was feeling yesterday came flooding back like the flood we had labor day weekend! 

Yes, I figured out I was sad, a little melancholy, I felt sorry for myself!  My baby is growing up and no longer need me as much as I need him!  Geez, that's what happened yesterday when they announced he was receiving a longevity pin.  He has been at his school for 12 years (he started two years before pre-k in their children's early learning center)!!  High school choices need to be made in two months, but he just got here I thought!  Why does it have to go so fast?  All the years came rushing back!  I remembered when he did the 1st grade play and he was a monkey from the zoo all the way to last year when he played "Big Jule" from the musical "Guys and Dolls". 

So today, I'll focus on remembering good things and not so much on being this pathetic little girl that's trying to get out, act like a brat and scream and pout because my son is growing up!  No I'll be a grown up about this.  Yeah, right.....

Sylvia

My dive into blogging...

As I go through my lists of to do's, wishes, projects, and yes even some completed ones, I realize that lists upon lists upon lists just keep piling up.  My "to do's" keep getting longer and nothing but time stops me from accomplishing this.  Ooh, time management would be so great at this moment!

So what did I do?  Added  "begin a blog"  on my list!  Go figure, I thought,  this will surely sit around for a while....but here I am, blogging!  I should be catching up on some much needed sleep, emptying and reloading the dishwasher, adding another load of laundry to the machine and yes most importantly, working on some very important files that need to be completed for work! 

Hey,  I say,  this is therapy!!!!  Did I really convince myself this was therapy?  or am I procrastinating on the inevitable pile of work that is waiting for me?    This is my quiet time!!(I scream quietly to myself)...when I ever get any. 

So my list grows, but happily I found that with a little focus, a little meditation, a little guilty pleasure of leaving some dirty dishes around, I write.  I sit quietly in front of this blank page and just let my mind wander into blogging.... Good luck to me.  I'm a newbie, but even if I'm sharing with an infinite world that won't ever look at my page, I feel good.  Yes, I can dream can't I?

Sylvia